This morning I went to The Old Biscuit Mill for breakfast and I came across a blueberry pie, something I hardly see in the cafes or bakeries. I’ve never had a blueberry pie before either and it made me think of Wong Kar Wai’s “My Blueberry Nights” so thought I might as well try a slice while it’s there since I always go for cheesecake or tiramisu. And as I took my first bite, it made me think of this scene:
Sometimes you can’t help but feel like that blueberry pie and you try to look for reasons. “Sometimes it’s better not knowing and other times, there’s no reason to be found. People make different choices but you can’t blame that blueberry pie for being what it is.” And you’re left wondering how it is that someone you once looked up to and loved can make you feel like you’re not good enough, that you’re not worth the explanation and honesty. But every now and then, someone comes along and decides to try it out and realises that it was worth it. Maybe it’s an acquired taste or maybe people are wary of trying out new things. Either way, you might not get to the full reason. It’s true, everyone loves a good chocolate cake or cheesecake because you know what you’ll be getting and you can find them everywhere (I would know, I love cheesecake too). But blueberry pies… I guess they are different. You don’t get to see them often and you might not know what it’ll be like but once in a while you might just happen to spot one and who knows, you might be pleasantly surprised.
And just like those stories behind those keys as well, things might not turn out the way you thought it would and you realise that life happens.
“Things happened, time happened. It’s pretty much always the case more or less. Maybe one of them ran off with someone else. Maybe the feelings just went away.” Whatever the case, people make different choices which you have no control over and you might end up feeling like that blueberry pie for a while. But at least you know you’re one of a kind, that finding it may not be easy and it might take time but whoever finds it will have made the effort to look for it and will appreciate it for what it is.